The green bottle swishes around in the light, Halo kicks up a cloud of red sand and Mick punches him in the shoulder, wiping the dust from his new black shirt. I watch Hale through the bottle, a wayward drop of juice distorts her face. She looks like a glowing corpse, the setting sun behind her burns like a lime, the sky above her is kiwi jello. A puff of red dirt reminds me they probably don’t know what kiwis taste like. Mick tackles Halo and their matching clothes get matching dust stains.
I will never stop producing philosophy, I will fill my body with bullets and egg shells.
He was screaming but the glass blocked out all the sound, liquid oozing from his pores, his veins straining against his skin. The nurse squeezed my arm so I wouldn’t try to go inside. Instead, I just put my hands up to the window and watched the line on the monitor jump in a million directions. Plasma dripped down into him through the IV, the sheets on the bed were covered in washed out hearts and clouds.
Diamond eyes. It was a disease. It was a hideous sparkle, an unnatural hope that can’t be controlled or made aware of itself. A golden hand locked up inside thousands of miles of rock, that still moves and flexes, as if it believes that one day it will break out. That’s what she was, a diamond-eyed girl, ready to believe, unwilling to fight.
She slices at her neck with an empty finger, the skyline beside her lights up with fireworks, her hairline shatters in the wind, she spits, radiating, “I feel like a fucking goddess now. Happy graduation.” Her teeth vanish first into the darkness, her eyes are the last to burn out, seething with an unknowable cosmic heartbreak.
"Beauty has no point in a broken world," he mutters, glaring into the city below, popping the lid and pouring the life-giving pills into the streets.
“That’s cliche,” I reply, doing the same.
The first dragon (or so I’ll call it, a dragon) lumbered across the deserts of our barren world, he was covered in dust and filth, but his scales glowed with a hint of some secret beauty. His eyes were flaming with ancient intelligence, as if he knew everything that would happen to both him and us, like he was aware of every spinning grievance we wished to air with him, yet he was silent, as we tied him to the rocks and watched his body turn into a metropolis.
I felt the last strand come undone, the last shard of god dislodge from the toxic soil of my mind, the final piece of machinery pop apart, pulling at the edge of my souls with a dying vacuum. The wires fell into each other, blood droplets leaping across the white napkin, like a drop of sweat falling from the forehead of a sick, old man, waiting out his days in a religion fueled panic-attack, ripping off the arms of teenagers and freezing entire jungles for the sake of his own conscience.
people will tell you
that you are made of broken pieces.
theyll show you a picture
of glass shards above the sea,
point at an insignificant seashell
and say “this is you,”
then theyll point at the glass and say,
“this is god”
Hot concrete. Rubber soles. The worst ever combination known to mankind. Well, I guess guns and newborns are a pretty bad combo too. And like, lemon juice and open wounds. Water and electricity. And the hellish combination that is myself and every single day I spend in this asshole of a town. But, for right now, hot concrete and rubber soles is probably the worst combination known to mankind.
It was a thursday, one of the worst days of the week, and I had just left the old soda diner on the edge of the freeway and found my car had zero gas. Like no gas. Like the fuel had been tapped and drunk by some homeless coyote filled with cactus meat. I decided I could simply walk back into town, but for some reason i assumed my old rubber as fuck boots would survive the literally burning street. I swear, if a tumbleweed rolled across it it would melt and then grow little legs just to jump off of it.
I use my hand to shade my eyes, which for some reason have decided to not melt yet, and turn back to look at the old tin diner to track how far I’ve walked. My car’s roof shoots me in the eye with a glare, and the shiny red and white restaurant melts like my shoes.
I consider going back to my car and sitting inside while I wait for the sun to set, maybe call my dad and see if he could come pick me up, but a quick check reminds me that the battery is dead. Who puts a diner which is generally a common hang out spot for vulnerable teenagers in the middle of the desert five miles away from town. I also consider going back to the diner and letting Shane Whitley give me a ride like he offered.
"You’re the prettiest girl in this whole town." I remember he whispered to me, while I sucked down my banana shake and tried to ignore his armpit as he leaned towards me, teeth glimmering like his disgusting blue eyes.
It’s not that I don’t mind being “the prettiest girl in this whole town”, and not that Shane Whitely’s jaw line couldn’t possibly support an entire bridge, it’s just that I think I could get better, less disintegrating/boner induced offers. I also wish that “this whole town” where I am “the prettiest girl” was somewhere else.
When Shane hopped off his stool to take a piss, and Ms. Re Re Jean The Waitress smiled at me like I had a million-fucking-dollars taped to my forehead, I decided it best to get in my car and go home. Of course that was when I discovered all the gas was gone. I was about to check to see if there were any holes in the bottom where somebody could have drained it, but then I remembered that Shane Whitely is probably washing his hands and finger-curling a lock of his ambiguosly colored hair. You couldn’t ever really tell what color it was, sometimes its black, sometimes brown, and sometimes, in the sunlight, it looks like some dark shade of blonde. You’d think his eyebrows would give it away, but they’re just as perfectly mysterious as his motorcycle-riding, lacrosse-playing face.